I believe there is a clock, that knows when my payday is. As my payday approaches, without fail something goes extremely wrong, causing me to shell out a large sum of money ($200-$500) to pay for it to be fixed. Air conditioning, tires, spark plugs and coils. Today it is my cell phone. While, in a life proof case my phone descended 3 feet onto the ground. Shattering the digitizer and rendering my phone useless. This is only made worse by the fact that it is a touch screen and on silent. So my alarm continually goes off, but I can only press the snooze button on the side.
I feel awful about it. I rely on my phone for so much communication between my work and family. The moment I realized it was broken, I sort of lost it. I was with my friend Rosie who kindly went with me to Best Buy, and I think that made it even worse…I had a slight meltdown in the store. We came home to eat some Thai food, and I was pretty much done for the day. I could not muster up an ounce of joy. I was frustrated.
All summer, I have worked to pay off the fall semester before it starts. All, summer, I have worked to pay off my credit card. With all these random expenses, it is becoming impossible.
I called it a night earlier than usual. As, I lay in my bed staring into the darkness, I began to pray.
God, help me to see the bigger picture. In the context of today so much has happened. Remind me that my cell phone is not a big deal. Remind me to care more about what is eternal and less of what is temporary. Please don’t allow me to be distracted and miss something so important.
Matthew 6, popped into my head
Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Convicting stuff. Now, I don’t think God is upset with me because I’m bummed that my phone broke. However, I do think that allowing a material item to control my entire disposition is a problem. So, yeah. I don’t have a phone. I will probably have to shell out $200 to pay for a new one, but I have plenty reason to be thankful.
- I have been able to pay (via credit or debit) for every random expense.
- I have been able to still faithfully tithe.
- I have other means to contact my family
- My car runs better than ever.
- I still have income in my account.
- All of these expenses happen in a timely manner.
- My friends randomly bless me by purchasing movie tickets or dinner for me.
- Random restaurants bless me by giving me free food.
- I was with an encouraging friend when all this happened.
- I can turn to God for comfort even for something as menial as a cell phone
- God comforts me with truth for something as menial as a cell phone
- My alarm on my cell phone still works
- I have the income to pay for a new phone.
- God uses silly situations like this to teach me and grow me.
- Mom and sister serve me so well in helping through this.
The amazing thing about this prayer is, in a matter of moments, God shifted the entire position of my heart. From complete frustration to a reminder of my reliance on Him for ALL THINGS. I think that is what our lives are meant to be about. We were never meant to figure things out on our own. We were meant to seek Him, because He is so easily found.