To Be in Love

I think of all the ones I’ve ever loved, sincerely and purely and wholly. In time, it convolutes. Depravity is not me but with me and sometimes in me. I deeply desire to love in excess without ill motive. Why is it so hard? Why do I fool myself into thinking I can? Why do … More To Be in Love

Object Permanence

From infancy to age two, babies develop object permanence. It is a concept that even when objects are unsensed or unperceived they still continue to exist. It’s 2:34am and I am lost in my thoughts. What is a milestone in infancy, is dismissed by adolescence.  We all to learn objects don’t remain with us permanently. … More Object Permanence

November 27

Tell us about a blog post you didn’t publish. Currently, there are 25 blogs sitting in my draft box. As I look over them they fall into two categories of why they are not published: too personal and too controversial.  Relatable and ambiguous. If I could describe myself and my writing style in two words … More November 27

November 26

Write a poem. Welcome to Life (written November 9, 2008) We live behind painted facesBehind good gracesBehind glass wallsWe come out neverHiding is much betterWe laugh when others fallWe accept no oneWe kill with gunsWe trample on the small Self-Made Valleys (Written October 8, 2018) Is it really a valley if you dug it yourself?Or … More November 26

November 22

Thanksgiving. What are you most thankful for? Life seems like a series of laments in certain seasons. Nevertheless, I am thankful for what feels like a human experience. I don’t care for fame or notoriety. I care to know the goodness of love from God and others. I have been loved really well this year … More November 22

November 11

Write an open letter to your future self. Dear Tosin, Your life has been a whirlwind. Everything in you in this particular moment in history is ready to leave your job, your friends, and yourself behind. STAY. Stay put. I cannot make the promise that the eternal raincloud over your life will go away, but … More November 11

November 10

What does it mean to live boldly? If you know me from work or school you would probably peg me as a shock-jockey. The nonsense that comes out of my mouth at times is appalling. However, I don’t think that it takes a lick of boldness to say what’s on your mind about something or … More November 10

A Pleasant Haunting

Pitchfork: Considering you had a distant relationship, were you at all surprised that her death hit you so hard? SS: Yeah. In the moment, I was stoic and phlegmatic and practical, but in the months following I was manic and frantic and disparaging and angry. They always talk about the science of bereavement, and how … More A Pleasant Haunting

Words & Meaning

Death took me by the hand in an entrancing fashion and led me down a boulevard turned alleyway. I would have never expected it. Beat up by a bully, I was too blind to actually see. Beat up by my own broken hands. How would they ever shape themselves to praise again? Clenched fists and … More Words & Meaning

Row

During class today, I just got really sad. It was around 7:41pm and if I had been alone, I would have probably cried, but I carried on in my usual rambunctious nature. I journaled during the last group’s presentation. I needed to get words out. I remember why I journaled as a thirteen-year-old. I had … More Row

Placement

Finding where you fit as an adult is difficult. Sometimes, the adolescent fears only hibernate during your early twenties and then reemerge from their slumber in your late twenties. Being displaced for a season doesn’t help that. Being single doesn’t help that. Struggling to figure out “family” both biological, fictive, and spiritual doesn’t help that. … More Placement